Difficult situation with a brain strongly stuck in “hypervigilent” mode….please help
I left a toxic working environment recently because I couldn’t nervously cope anymore with many people/ managers non-sense after many years of “trying”
After reading a lot and trying to understand what was going on with me, I realized the fact I suffer from past untreated sleep apnea, added to the intense toxicity I was experiencing permanently at work for so many years, left my brain stuck in “hypervigilant“ mode . Every single task or discussion was felt as a threat and I jumped quicky in fight mode. Still same even if I left the workplace a few months ago.
Even the sleep apnea treatment with a cpap and mask is felt as a threat by my brain keeping me in light sleep for a hours with the inability to fall into deep sleep ( factual observation done during sleep studies or frequent monitoring) with a maximum or 40 minutes of deep sleep per night, waking up every 2 hours….
My organism is probably oversensitive as well to any stimulus ! I tried many supplements and plants, whatever you name it and I am having opposite effects!
No wonder I feel like a mess since years. My brain and body couldn’t and still can’t recover. I stay fit but even muscular development was ,and still is , difficult, my brain and body probably not allocating resources to build but only to protect and react at anytime….
one input I thought about is I had a cancer and chemotherapy 20 years ago and wonder if it all started there ….
I wanted to believe in vagus nerve stimulation , whatever the brand , but honestly the mess the manufacturers generate around is not reassuring at all and reflect amateurism : either there is a “crooks crooked” story between companies/individuals (specific to enowell / yojo / dr andré Boezaart or whatever) or the below for all brands:
- Patent but everybody uses it ( zenowell, vagustim, nuropod or whatever)
- Paid reviews (like any other hobby Or business anyway you’d say….)
- All brands point at studies demonstrating either slight or non existing improvement (nonsense to point, feel like copy/paste….) or point at studies in which their devices wasn’t used for (nonsense again) (best examples are nurosym / nuropod , vagustim , Pulsetto, truvaga..),
This is not reassuring at all and disappointing when you want to believe in it and you are ready to buy one. It feels looks like all of the brands are amateur and not serious at all…
I am so desperate find a solution for me and find regenerative sleep and rest for good to function normally again in whatever I do, even living the day !