I have started my journey a week ago, wish me luck
After being addicted to porn and masturbation for over 15 years, something in me just snapped last week. Deleted all my hoarded porn, cancelled my subscriptions, etc.
I have done this before, usually after a 5-6 hr fap session during post nut clarity. But those other times, I felt depressed in a few days and started re-downloading and re-hoarding stuff. Again to be disgusted with myself after another long fap session.
I would feel unclean, partly because of the kind of porn I was watching, partly because it was a secret I had to keep from all my friends and loved ones. Like i knew that they didn't know who I really was, or what I was doing when I was all alone. Having to take multiple viagra pill to maintain an erection (38M), having to seek out more extreme fantasies, wasting 15-20 hours every week fapping, had my self-esteem in a gutter.
This time feels different, I have had no urge to look at porn. After a week I feel noticably more energetic and less depressed. Sexualized imagery is not triggering anymore.
It's worth mentioning that I have been spending the extra time gaming, which is helping with the boredom part of this. And I do understand that I would need to seek out real relationships to succeed long term.
Anyway, I am hopeful, and made this post to hold myself accountable, and to share what I am feeling with folks who won't judge me too harshly.
Wish me luck!!