How can one tell the difference between having chronic fatigue and having the syndrome?
So I've been having chronic fatigue since I wus 11 or 12 I'd say. Around that time I got really depressed and almost completely stopped going to school (my dad would try force me to) but I would literally lock myself in the bathroom and fall asleep on the floor im not joking. Not because i wanted to be a nuisance but because i wus THAT tired. My family blamed my older brother saying "you're just following in his footsteps" Because he dealt with even worse depression than me, nearly completely bedbound.
Through the years with medication, behavioral hospitals and working on myself I have gotten so much better. As of now im diagnosed with BPD, C-PTSD, ADHD, and autism....But I still will spend entire days in bed, miss my responsibilities, my own college classes that cost money. I've never had a job and I dont think i can work a full time one. Im 19 now. When I go to bed i tell myself "you WILL get up tomorrow. You have to. Just fucking do it." And 60% of the time I will get up. But 60% isn't nearly enough i need to get up everyday.
All i can ask myself is "why do u do this yourself?" And the only response is " I wasnt exactly trying to" well then...try harder! But what does it matter if i do, even if i have a good week ill always go back to failing again.
I dont feel depressed but its like my body does if that makes sense. I have the mental power, I mean my mind is a constant chatterbox, just irritating me all the time with thoughts thoughts thoughts thats all there is but barely any action. While my body just wants me to relax. But all I do is relax! So why dont I actually feel...relaxed idk.
Yall know that sleepy feeling when your sick with the flu or a real bad cold? Thats the type of feeling I get when I wake up. Like yeah I just woke up but I can sleep for another 12 hours tbh.
But also I've read that CFS is incredibly disabling so I probably dont have it in reality since I can get up a little more than half the time. I wus just wondering abt it since my fatigue has been a constant for so long. And im...tired of it loll. Caffeine doesn't work, i can fall asleep right after chugging a energy drink. Sleeping more doesnt work, just makes me want to sleep EVEN more.
What else can I try? Is there any suggestions?