u/Human_Adagio_235

I think I'm too delulu to look at my chart with both eyes open. Sucks to be me? I'm just tired and hopeless. I used to have so much ambition but e-ve-ry-thing falls short. I have no kids, no spouse, no stable job, almost no more savings, I've moved houses dozens of times and traveled + learned several languages but that's about it. I can't work a 9-to-5 (routine drives me absolutely crazy), and all my attempts at launching a business fall short due to a lack of discipline. I'm in my 30s and feeling like the biggest capricorn loser of all times. Why have so much ambition and so little resources to make it into something? Mars retrograde 6H makes everyday life simply frustrating, Mercury retrograde 1H opposite moon makes my inner monologue a literal torture, Cancer moon makes me hypersensitive-whiny-victim-mentality. I mean... what's the point? I thought I'd become a successful business owner by now but I literally am a massive loser at this point. My life feels like such a waste, I don't get it.Oh and to make things more complicated, I'm not even sure of my rising sign, could be 29° scorpio or 0° sag.