obsessive over sex and everything related
guys, i cant stand myself anymore, imagine my poor boyfriend.
i'm obsessing over sex, masturbation and anything related to this subject ever since I discovered my bf masturbates to porn (he lied about it for years, then i went through his phone because I was suspicious and found out).
Actually, I'm obsessed with sex ever since our sex drive went very low years ago and I started thinking he didn't find me atractive. Now, we talk about it very heart opened and our sex life improved A LOT. But the masturbation obsession is making me crazy, cuz' i know its completely normal and i really want him to satisfy himself and be ok with his sexuality, but at the same time i feel completely ignored, replaced and really bad with myself when I see he's in the bathroom for a long time (and I imagine he's probably masturbating). Also, i found it very difficult to trust when he says he didnt touch himself when I ask. Im constantly hypervigilant over any suspicious behavior indicating that and im starting to act and feel crazy.
I dont know what to do anymore, im afraid im going to ruin everything if I dont change.