I’m writing this because I don’t really have anyone to talk to, and I’ve been craving genuine interaction for a long time. It’s been almost two years since I felt like I could be my real self around others. I used to be a good student with goals, friends. Somewhere along the way, I slowly disappeared from everyone’s life, and now I’m left feeling deeply lonely.
Back then, I preferred being alone and avoided socializing. But now, even the smallest interaction means a lot to me. I sometimes worry that I might bore people or push them away. This loneliness has started to change me in ways I don’t like—I’ve become more distant, sometimes even rude, and that’s not who I want to be.
I feel like this phase has affected my academic life as well, and I regret how things have turned out. I don’t want to stay like this. I really want to change and feel like myself again. I just don’t know where to begin. If anyone understands or has been through something similar, please help me!