Im gonna start working in a school in Romania that will pay me approx 2000 euros for 12hrs per week of classes. Along with additional responsibilities. Im in my 4th year teaching and want to know if this is a fair payout.
Ok here is a vent. I tried picking up a girl just fking now and i got pretty badly rejected. And i feel like i fjed up so bad. And i feel rejected. And im swallowing this rejection as i write this. So this is just a fking rant. Damnn..i feel so stupid and fawkkkk. I'm cramping up in my soul. I just wanna process this emotion.
So i was on the metro when i tried this and it went pretty bad. But in my mind i either didnt try this and succumb to my fear or try and be rejected and feel stupid. I made the braver choice. My hands were shaking but i still did it.
God help me.😭
Edit: Ok for everyone asking me what happened. Basically for backstory, im an expat. So i was in a metrou when i saw this really pretty girl. She was my type. And from the looks alone, she also seemed from an ethnicity that spoke my language. She had earphones in. I was battling my mind, and when i said fk we on this mfker. I signalled to her to take out her earphones and asked her if she is from so and so country (cant say name cause of anonymity) then she said yes. I responded by saying oh then you speak 'so and so language'. She said yes and smiled. I then literally blanked out for 3 seconds 😭 cause i was out of shit to say. Then she put back her earphones, but i immediate prompted her to take em out and she did, then i said to her that honestly i was sitting here and i think that you are cute, and i was wondering if you could give me your Instagram. She said no and i told her to take it as a compliment. She nooded. She then got off at the very next station, I hope thats not because of me😭. But analyzing all this stuff. Here is what i think can be a good take away:
I appeared too needy, and didn't build rapport. The speaking the same language thing was good but i should've continued with the convo abit more before coming clean. And when i did come clean like that, it seemed as if i was trying to force shit too fast. Thats not the type if energy that will be responded too positively. Next time, imma build up some rapport. And instead of asking for her Instagram a better thing to say would be that i was seeing you and i think you are cute and i would be mad at myself if i didnt try to talk to you. And maybe take the convo from there.
Edit 2: thank you all for the position comments. I really needed it❤️❤️❤️