u/Hungry-Effort-1521

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How do you suggest I research stuff?? Such a simple question but I want to check facts and I'm finding articles that argue over each other online. Do I just need to go to the library? CAN I EVEN TRUST BOOKS?

I feel like I can't trust anything or anyone anymore because everything i research ends up being not true. Especially with my Christianity questions and other religion questions. I wanna learn so much more about what other people are believing and how people are living. But I don't trust anything anymore, I'm so horrible at doing research and I'm disheartened. How can I aid myself in this? I want to learn more but it's freaking difficult

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I will often make things as awkward as possible during conversations or literally just when I'm walking because I think it is funny as fuvk and when people give me weird looks I will laugh even more, that's weird af lol, and when I'm home I'm constantly stimming and shaking from excitement from being home LMFAO.

my husband is always making fun of me cuz of how weird I am so now we just converse with weird sounds and animal noises at night LMAO.

And even my one year old son is looking at me sideways now 🤣

I also like to twerk to jazz music, anytime a song comes on in one of my husband's video games I will run in the room and start awkwardly twerking and I fall down laughing LMAO

I also like to randomly hop on my husband's head and start humping his head lol

And I also really like to fake fight with my husband too and anytime he starts to tickle me I just start SCREAMING 🤣🤣🤣🤣

My husband also has to hold onto me by the shoulders in walmart because I will often playfully run away LMFAO

We have also named every stuffed animal we have and they're now our children lol

I'm also decorating our house in a Cyberpunk 2077 decor because I'm so obsessed with that game lol

He loves everything about me LMFAO and it's all his fault 😂

I do have my down times and times I'm completely still but my entire goal in life with my husband is to never let him know what's coming next lol

Thanks for reading 😀

Also I have this weird obsession with wanting to feel special to LITERALLY everybody around me because I was abused by my mom and bro for my entire life and my dad killed himself and I don't even remember him and the rest of my family won't talk to me because of my mom so I grew up being called stupid and fat like EVERY DAY so I started to live in my own imagination cuz that's all I had to make me happy and now I'm ditzy af and my brain is always up in the clouds but I should probably go get therapy because I have this deep rooted need to be special to people ugh

Also does anyone relate out there in the world?