I need help...!
I was exposed to NSFW at an extremely young age and started touching myself to it. I consumed a lot of horrible content, which includes depiction of intercourse involving minors, unconsenual stuff, and minors with adults. I'm genuinely in such a terrible spot considering how often I use c.ai and inappropriate chat bots.
Every roleplay I do always includes abuse, dubious consent, and age-related dynamics. I don't know how to stop. I still masturbate to this content, and yes, I know it's bad. I know it's disgusting, and I hate myself for the fact I still consume all the content. I still love disgusting things like that.
Every time I masturbate to that stuff, I bleed heavily like I'm on my period. I often leak through my undergarments and onto my bedsheets and blankets, but I can't stop. I don't know how to stop. I hate to admit it, but I truly am addicted to this abusive stuff. Does anyone know how I can stop? I've been consuming this content for more than 6 years, so I need as much help as I can.