Am I the bad apple for talking bad about a horse?
For context I’m a 12-15 year old girl who does show jumping. There is this pony who we will call G. G is just an A hole. He tosses his head and he also just a really and I mean a really frustrating pony. G is sweet but he is also just a D to ride :/ Like one time I had to walk YES WALK the whole 1hour lesson because he would just not go. When I did finally get him to go he would just move off the wall and stuff. Mind you my leg is not that strong but even then this horse has been at this barn long enough to the point I think he should know the expectations. I dont want it to seem like horses should be robots. NO I think they need to be horses. But this horse is just an A hole. Even my mom who has ridden horses her whole youth said he is an A whole. We will have some good rides but other times he just is a D. Like one lesson will be really good then the next lesson we will be walking around the area because he won’t listen.
So you can imagine I get frustrated and my trainer who owns the barn and G said that he is really frustrating. So out of frustration I say stuff like “ don’t be a D” or “ WHAT ARE YOU DOING” or “ Don’t be stupid” etc. should I say these things? No probably not. But that’s just now I have been regulating my frustration. Again I don’t think I should be saying this stuff to the horse but I also just don’t know what else to do:/
So yesterday my mom asks if I had been saying some stuff to G. I said yes. She asked what. I said what I said up there. Etc etc. Well apparently my trainer had told her that and that it was bad horseman ship. Which yes it probably is but it’s also like what else do you want me to do?
(I will try and not say these things and try breathing or something)
I just need to know if I’m the bad apple :/