u/IDONTKNOW_E

It’s summer again. And I hate how my back looks. I’ve been picking my back for over 10 years and the scars are very much there. Every summer I try to wear what I like, to feel more comfortable, to feel beautiful, but every summer I look at my back and just cry. It looks so ugly. I go out and I’m so jealous of other women. I’m so tired. I want to look good and enjoy my time but this is always weighing on me. While I am in therapy to minimise my anxiety and my picking, the appearance of it doesn’t get any better. My partner keeps telling me how he loves me no matter what, but I just see how different I look from other people and cry. I wish I was normal.