TW::SIDS Mention. Give me all the perks to having a boy🩵
So my husband and I struggled to get pregnant and stay pregnant for about 5 years. Last year we finally had a healthy pregnancy with our rainbow girl🩷 while I’ve always been open and looking forward to any gender, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t pull more for a girl just so I could have a daughter. I have a very strained relationship with my mom and always wanted to be the mom to a daughter I never had. We lost our girl at 6 weeks to SIDS. It was and has been the hardest most painful thing I have ever had to live through. Just traumatic and heartbreaking in so many ways. Without actively trying, we got pregnant about 3 months after losing her. Selfishly we were both hoping for a girl because we just loved our sweet girl so much, we loved being girl parents. It also would have meant no redoing the nursery complexly over, as neither of us have looked forward to packing up her things. We recently found out we are expecting a healthy baby boy🩵 while I am so so blessed to be pregnant again especially how hard we struggled in the past, I definitely had some gender disappointment in the beginning. Now, it’s all passed. I am very excited to have a son, while still grieving our girl. I would just love to hear all the wonderful things about having a little boy to give my heart some more joy to look forward to when I’m going through some tough moments. Our girl has only been gone for 6.5 months so the pain is still very strong and present. But I want to give this baby all the love, joy and excitement this pregnancy also deserves🤍