My Ex was my Everything
I don't really know where to start, but I need to let my heart speak. I met her on November 10th 2024 in Japan we dated in South Korea for a few months and she even came in France to see me (I am french).
We broke up 1 year 3 month and 7 days ago and there is not a single day I don't think of her.
I was the type of guy who didn't believe in love at first sight but when I saw her, I knew it was different. I remember perfectly the day I fall in love with her. We were both playing games and eating fried chicken and she was sitting there smiling and lauching and I just stop for a second and hope that this second would last forever.
She is smart, funny, always had something to say, and her beauty was on another level. Even things that people generally don't think about make me fall even more in love with her, for example I love perfum (this is a hobby I have) and she has an extremely well-developed sense of smell, all her senses where more developped than usual. She had that smile that would make me forget my name or what I am talkingabout and those eyes that looked like the sky during a beautiful summer night with the full moon (the kind that make you at ease and forgot all your problem). I don't like rating women or men because it made us feel like object and I don't like that but so you understand, in all my life, and even after she broke up with me, all the women I met where 9/10 maximum, I could never meet someone that was 10/10, but her... You know we all have in mind a woman or man of our dream, someone who ticks all the boxes, and for me it was her.
The thing is I know we didn't date for a long time but the love I felt was stronger than anything I have felt and I can't feel that again, I feel like I will never find anything like this again. I love her so much. The worst part is, she doesn't care about me at all, she completly move on and 3 days ago she posted a story with her new boyfriend I just can't stand it. Seeing her happy in all those dates that I dreamed of doing with her, made me sick, not being able to eat anything and cry because I realized that its too late for me. It is the reason why I am writing down today because I need to let my heart and brain and soul understand that I need to move on just as she did.
And you know what even though I am crying, even though I can't stand the fact that she is with somebody else, I hope that she is happy and hope he treat her as she deserve to be treated because she is the most precious woman in his life.
I could have probably wrote this down better but I just needed to relieve my heart from this.