u/IPlayToLose631

i’ve been socially out for 7 years now. almost 8. my family is anti trans so i haven’t been able to legally change my name or medically transition at all. i’m so tired of living the way i do. people look at me weird. my own family doesn’t support who i am. i’m facing discrimination in my field, and the last partner i had used me for sex.

i’m so close to just detransitioning. the thought is actually very strong. I fantasize about being able to just live as a cis man (i’m mtf btw) because i know I’ll never pass enough to be recognized as a woman. life would be so much easier. i want that so badly.

I’m seriously considering detransitioning. i don’t really know what else i can even try to do to make my suffering go away. i am at my whits end.

hey all,

I, regrettably, didn’t get an internship this summer. So, again, i’m filling my time with personal projects. I want to go to graduate school for aerospace (coming from an electromechanical background) and want your opinions on what would make a good project in terms of grad school applications. I want to do systems design. Here are some of my ideas with explanations:

1. Tri-propeller drone analysis

The idea with this one is to have complete symmetry in each of the three arms in order to have three points that can be “forward facing”. I want to simulate and build a product that I can do analysis on under these questions:

a) Can a symmetric tricopter maintain stable forward flight after constantly redefining its forward axis?

b) How does reorienting affect control stability and response time?

c) Does a rotationally symmetric airframe sacrifice forward-flight efficiency for directional flexibility? is it more stable at all?

and d) What instabilities emerge during orientation transitions in symmetric VTOL systems?

2. Rotational torque stabilization

This would really just be a project based around controls with a flywheel that stabilizes unstable bodies. I’ve heard it’s used in spacecraft and I think it’d be applicable to what i want to do.

3. Rocket motor testing stand

Creation and testing of homemade rocket motors alongside a platform to measure thrust vectors and torque. I’m part a NASA competition, so i’d also work in figuring out our airbrakes system if i do this one.

Obviously, the first is more thought out. I just want a second opinion as to which would be the most valuable and stand-out to graduate advisors or admissions people. I’m just trying to do what I can. If anyone has any projects they think might stand out or be cool to dedicate a summer to, please leave a comment!

thanks yall :)