u/Ibbyboyy

I’ve been struggling with PMO for around 10 years now. I started watching when I was around 12. I tried many times to stop, but recently when I attempted to reduce it, things got worse instead of better. For the past 2-3 weeks I’ve been relapsing 3-4 times a day.

Now I feel mentally and physically exhausted. My erections feel weak, sometimes I don’t get one at all, and because of years of rough grip/masturbation I’ve started feeling pain and noticed some curvature too. It has made me anxious and scared about my future.

PMO is honestly my biggest concern in life right now. I want to take recovery seriously this time. I’m planning to start fasting Mondays and Thursdays from this Thursday, inshaAllah, and focus on rebuilding myself mentally, physically, and spiritually.

Please keep me in your duas. May Allah forgive us and help us overcome our struggles.

Assalamualaikum everyone.

I am struggling a lot with this addiction lately 4 to 5 times relapsing, and I have developed some very weird fantasies which I would not discuss about it here and I fear it might trigger someone else.

I don't know whether I can even get married with my fantasy as they are really unhealthy, shameful, sinful 💔 stuff, I got only 3 yrs left before I get married so I need to focus more on myself, I motivate myself by remembering I need to become better for at least my future spouse who is going to believe in me and is going to marry me.

So today I am writing this to mark my first day away from this sin,

I am going to follow strict rules like avoiding doom scrolling,

No phone in the bedrooms bathrooms, walk to the mosque for prayers, meeting someone new everyday at the mosque or the community, sleep on time, wake up early for tahajjud.