What is this 'feeling'?
There was a boy in my class who’s very popular,not in a flashy way, but because he’s genuinely smart, active in everything, and always involved in school programs. I’m more of the quiet, studious type. The kind of person people only notice when something big happens.
We studied together last year, and I remember being really impressed by him. Over time, I started feeling something for him — I guess you could call it a crush, but I’m not even sure what it is. It wasn’t about his looks. It was more his voice and presence… there’s something calm and comforting about it.
We’ve had a lot of eye contact over time, maybe coincidence, maybe not. Three girls apparently confessed to him last year and he turned them all down, so I never even thought of doing anything like that.
This is my first time feeling something like this, and I honestly don’t know how to handle it. I don’t plan on telling him because I don’t want to risk making things awkward or losing even the small impression he might have of me. I also don’t want rumours or unnecessary attention at school.
It’s been about a year, and the feeling hasn’t gone away. If anything, it’s only grown stronger. I’ve never told anyone except my mom, and even then I just kept it vague. She was calm and understanding, which helped a lot.
I guess I just want to know if anyone else has gone through something like this. Was it just a teenage crush, or something you still remember later in life? How did you deal with it? Did you tell someone or just move on?
Sometimes I try to think of it as a “right person, wrong time” situation, but I’m still trying to understand what this feeling actually is.