Today I realized I am ugly
It finally dawned on me. After pandering over why nobody believed me I’ve finally realized.
I worked at a 24hour restaurant, worked the night shift for a while. In that time there would be this homeless man that would come in and masturbate in the booth.
I wasn’t aware till a customer pulled me aside and told me "that man is touching himself to you", I did all the right things.
Told the cook (since it was only the two of us at that moment) he did nothing.
Told my manger when they came in, still nothing.
Later in the year when one of my manger’s experienced a creep and sheared her story, I brought up the homeless man again and was met with something along the lines of "now everyone has a story."
So I dropped it. Fast forward a couple more months we get a new night waitress. Some homeless guy, same thing.
They believed her. I ranted to my friends and they all kinda….looked at me. They didn’t believe me. I told a different group of friends they wanted to chalk it up to me being black but it’s not.
Its simply because I’m unattractive and nobody could believe that would happen to me.
I guess the silent question is in the back of everyone’s mind on whether or not they’re attractive but this is such a disgusting realization that I’m not sure how to cope with it.