I've had a rough year and didn't really earn much this year, so I'd gladly save the money I usually spend for the Steuerberater. I'm terrified of the task, but I'm willing to try and do my tax return myself. Do you have any resources to suggest me? My German is not good, but I can use translators
I've had my partial hysterectomy last thursday, on account of a history of fibroids. On the pre-surgery examination, they found endometriosis. When they went in laparoscopically the found A LOT MORE endometriosis: on my bowels, in Douglas' Pouch, somewhere else that I don't remember at the moment. I had adenomiosis too. Still, it went well! Both ovaries and cervix are safe, I'm 5 days post-op and totally off painkillers, I walk around, have bowel movements, pain is just discomfort, it's a ball.
But I can't stop spiraling: at this point I don't know if the pain I was feeling was from endo or the fibroids, but I know a hysterectomy is not a cure for it and I've read too many horror stories: people getting SI from hormonal therapy. Endo back in 6 months, spread to the lungs. People who can't get more laparoscopies on account of the scar tissue they have form all previous surgeries. I wasn't ready for this: I thought I had to burn the house down to evict fibroids and then I would be alright. I hadn't bargained for this.
I have OCD, so it's nothing new for me to obsess. But I'm so tired. My mother died five days before my surgery and I was her main caretaker during her 9 months long cancer story. I held up well, but now all the pent up stress is weighting on me.
I don't want people to tell me "it'll be alright", but I need some reminders that it could also go alright.