My parents are really angry at me for a C as a freshman
Hi! I thought I'd post this to see if I'm overreacting or not. To start off with some context, I've excelled in my classes in all prior years. I'm talking >100% in most classes. This year, I started off my first semester with taking an AP course and 3 honors courses. I finished that semester with an A in every class except my AP one, so I had a weighted 4.14 GPA. However, this semester went a little differently. Right now, I'm sitting with 5 As, a B, and a C in math, which accumulates to a weighted 3.7 GPA.
Math is one of my honors courses, so I'm doing sophomore math as a freshman. Still, my parents are extremely upset with me about the C in that class. I still have a unit test approaching, so there's still hope to get it to a B, but I'm also disappointed with myself, but it's not like I just suddenly stopped trying. I've been feeling very depressed recently, and so extremely unmotivated it shocks me. Dealing with that one the side, and the pressure I feel to remain "perfect," my grades were bound to slip.
My parents told me if I finish the year with a C, I won't be allowed me phone or computer for the entirety of summer, and I won't be allowed to go anywhere or have anyone over. Essentially cutting me off from the world. I'm nervous if this happens, because I'm already depressed, and I feel like that would make it much worse. I've had suicidal thoughts many time over the past few months, I've sharmed again, and I'm just reaching a point where I don't know what I'll do.
These consequences were brought up by my parents when we were arguing, which has taken place over the last couple of days. My mom also brought up my "issues," and yes, she used air quotes when she said it. My mom knows about my sharm, because I opened up to her about it. Now, I feel like she's throwing it back in my face by doing that. It really hurt my feelings. The following argument we had, she claimed "that never happened" but then said if it did it's not her fault. Our arguments over my grades got very heated, and I even told her I hate her. I don't regret saying that, not now at least, but who knows if I will next week. She used some classic mom lines like "I don't hate you but I don't like you at all" and "You're a child, you can't make decisions about your life yet." Both made me incredibly angry as well.
Anyways, there are probably a few minor details I'm forgetting, but if anyone has a question or something they'd like me to clarify I'm more than happy to! I really would like advise on how to deal with this because it's making my mental health take a turn for the worse.