Near death shroom trip with boyfriend
Last night, my boyfriend (19m) and I (18f) had our first shroom trip together and I saved his life. We took 5g of Penis Envy each. I know, way too much but we slowly added more because I've done this before and he said he wasn't feeling anything on 3g. I needed to smoke to relax a bit, which it did, but weed completely sent his trip sideways. He started freaking out tell me to go home, and walking up to me nonverbal making faces in a sort of psychotic like state, I was terrified like I was in a horror movie and he was possessed. He started yelling satan and then said he needs God and to pray with him, so we started praying while he paced around the house, me staying beside him. Then out of nowhere, he turns around and sprints towards his dad's bedroom yelling incomprehensible words and I'm screaming bloody murder running faster than I ever have in my life and manage to catch up and throw him to the ground as he was inches from grabbing his father's gun and killing himself. (yes i outran a black man😭), he is much stronger than me, but I managed to throw him down and get on top of him and we were both screaming and crying, I can still hear it in my head. About an hour later, we both came down from the high and ended up becoming closer than ever just talking for hours and he said I genuinely saved his life, that he was out of control and the experience he described afterwards I told him he had an ego death. I don't know what to do because I can't sleep, I've been shaking and I know this was only yesterday but I don't know how to handle this.