u/Icy-Piccolo7124

I went no contact with him at the end of May. I had deleted the app we talked on daily but couldn’t bring myself to delete him on Snapchat. I think a part of me really hoped that he’d reach out on there. That he’d see my stories and miss me. Jokes on me on guess because he watched my stories every time I posted but he never reached out.

I’ve been focusing on myself: working out, journaling, healing my negative thoughts and have been getting this gut feeling that I needed to connect back with my spirituality (not religion - I just believe in spirit guides, the universe, and a higher power). It’s something I disconnected with around COVID but I did a tarot reading and before I even asked anything (she knew nothing about me), she said I needed to let go of something. Well damn. It was the confirmation I was already seeing when I pulled my own cards. So I did it. I deleted him off Snapchat.

The level of freeing I felt afterwards, it was indescribable. I still miss him but I can already feel hope ❤️

What do you do when you lose your person? When he was the one who you could tell anything to and he’s gone from one day to another? Yes I know I chose to go NC but it hurts…and you have to put a smile on your face because no one knew we were together..I hate this 😔

Day 3 of NC with MM of almost 4yrs and it hurts. We met online and I knew he was married but we just hit it off so well that we found ourselves talking all day and night. I’d lose sleep messaging with him. Then after a couple years it slowed down and lately I call it a good day if we text for more than the typical GM or how are you text.

I finally had enough (or was hurt enough) to go NC yet I still want to reach out but I know if I do then I’m not honoring myself and I’ll fall back into accepting the bare minimum. He treated me like an option for a long time and I’m done. I don’t need to be in this constant cycle of whether he’s thinking of me or cares about me like he used to tell me constantly. I deserve better….or do I 😔