u/Id_simp_for_that

I’ve been an addict for 3 years so has my best friend. We met in rehab in the peak of our addictions and sorta trauma bonded. I’ve never had a connection like her. I love her more than anyone and I hate to see her crashing and burning in front of me. Today she wouldn’t pick up any of her calls, broke her leg jumping off a bridge and has been on god knows what. I feel helpless she lives in a different state and I’m so worried about it I’m using way more, I feel like she’s dragging me down with her but I don’t care I want her to be ok. If she dies everything would fall apart, I’m barely able to keep myself alive let alone her. I don’t know what to do I’m scared.

I’m an addict and I’ve been using a lot more since I finally got a little freedom and I think it’s messing with my meds or something cause I’m seeing stuff all the time. I don’t even know if it was a hallucination most of the time. Like yesterday I saw a homeless guy in the drive way and no one could see him. Everything in the corner of my eye moves and glitches, and I feel bugs all over me all the time. I feel so weird and I don’t even know if it’s like one big dream or I’m dead or something?

I thought I was doing fine just like a little sad but I’ve been seeing shit all the time. Last week I saw a man in my driveway, my necklace beads moving and turning gold, I feel bugs that aren’t there all the time. It’s freaking me out

I was on a walk today with my entire family and dog and I swore to fucking god I saw a homeless man in the drive thru with like piss soaked pants so I ask my mom what he’s doing as she calls me crazy cause she doesn’t see what I’m looking at. I’ve been using a lot and little things are off but I never hallucinate like that tho I’m confused