u/Idk-me-i-guess

I have grown into a household of forced obedience where defiance got met with abuse,both physical and psychological,so my way of coping is by reflecting what the person in front of me wants to see,even if they don't hold power over me,I forgot who I truly am,I started to believe that I am whom I company,because that's why when I'm alone it explains why I feel the sudden urge to end myself because of my uselessness.