Not sure what I am looking for
Dear Reader,
Sometimes I wish that the people who’ve hurt me felt the way all these people do. I read these letters and feel a delusional sense of hope that maybe they actually feel some kind of remorse for the impact they’ve had on me and my life. I wonder why I can’t get the fck over it, I just want to let it go. Nothing would change anything at this point, not even the stupid apology they always promised they would give me ~eventually.~ Why would I want an apology? What would I even get out of that? A chance to reject them? That’s pathetic. Like idk what I want or what would give me closure. All I know is that they ruined my life, changed me in all the worst ways, took all that made life meaningful and replaced that with pain. I think it’s less about them and more about what they took from me and the pain of going through it alone. Everyone and everything around me continues moving while I have been stuck in time, frozen and overwhelmed with grief.
Thanks for reading.
Mx