closted lesbian
hello everyone, i am a 22yo closeted lesbian living with my jw family. i am pretty much pomo but i still live at home and my family believe that i still believe in the religion and that i will eventually come back despite not attending meetings since i turned 18. its very lonely at home since i dont have siblings or cousins, kts just me keeping everything bottled up inside patiently waiting for an escape. i've known i was a lesbian for years now and i'm just waiting for the right time to leave as i am still quite dependent on my family. i am slowly trying to find community especially other lgbt but its been difficult since i dont know exactly where to start. that's when i discovered this subreddit and thought it would be a good idea to find like minded people. many people dont understand my struggle with religion with the added layer of being a part of a very homophobic family. being a part of this religion has made me feel guilty and awful for being who i am, ive lost friends over this and struggle to form and keep close relationships because i find it hard to like myself. i just want to feel less alone with my struggles, i cant feel like this forever :') i am currently in therapy trying to work through these pessimistic thoughts but i know there wont be substantial progress until i am fully capable of leaving which ends up making me feel worse.
any and all advice on finding community and hope in this miserable situation would greatly help and be appreciated.
thank you for your time <3