Not feeling it anymore
I’ve been working out for about 4 years on and off and lost about 125 lbs in the process. I used to weigh 300+ lbs so I initially got into the gym to lose weight. I thought just working out was enough, but I didn’t know I also needed a caloric deficit, but when I figured that out it changed everything. Over the span of a year I went from 300+ lbs to 175 lbs and I felt ecstatic. I felt confident now and I felt comfortable being myself in social situations. I loved working out and how it made me feel. Every time I went it felt like I was working towards something and now that I finally made it I feel lost. I initially lost the weight back in 2023 and got to my lowest weight in 09/2023 at 169lbs from this point everything went wrong I tired to “bulk”, but it was really just an excuse to binge eat and I gained about 31lbs in the process. I stopped myself from letting it get too out of control and bounced back between 185-200 for about 9 months, but that entire time I was just trying to get back to my lowest. After 9 months of doing that I just stopped training all together i don’t know what it was whether it was graduating school or just feeling lost. I didn’t train for several months and that lead me to gain an additional 35lbs on top of the 31 id previously gained. I now weighed 235lbs which to me made me feel disgusted with myself and I knew I needed to change and a flip switched in me and for the next year I spent time trying to lose that and earlier this year in feb, 2026 I was finally at my lowest again and for the first time ever I had abs and veins everywhere and had my dream physique. This didn’t last long I felt hunger to intense that I couldn’t stop myself from eating everything in sight and I would have 10k calorie binges that would sometimes span over 2-3 days. I have now gained 30 lbs again and I just feel lost. It is currently 5/15/26 and I don’t even feel like working out anymore I’ve just been sitting home the past 3 weeks. I have attempted to go to the gym, but I’m not feeling it. I don’t know what to do feel how i felt before.