u/IheartCart00ns

I work with a woman who is absolutely unhinged. She is a bully to both patients and coworkers and I honestly have no idea how this office has not been sued into the ground. I have been at my admin position for just over a year, and this is the longest anyone has lasted in this position in more than 5 years because of her.

I was assaulted back in February. A couple of weeks later, I got strep throat, then all of a sudden developed an allergy to amoxicillian. Before that was cleared up, I got a double ear infection and sinus infection that turned into pneumonia quickly... and I'm currently dealing with a (so far so good) healing broken rib from coughing so hard. So you could say it's been a stressful few months.

On Friday, my coworker started to throw things while having one of her hissy fits and I remembered that the person who SA me threw my clothes... and I did not remember that until just then. I spent the whole weekend in bed, triggered to the point of borderline paralyzed.

Today she grabbed me, yelled at me, and threw a patient's insurance cards at my face with 2 patients standing right at the desk. I stress puked several times today and have an appt with my PCP tomorrow to possibly discuss upping my anxiety meds.

Currently sitting at a bar trying not to cry. Thanks for listening, I truly just needed to get this off my chest and sometimes my AI journal only gets me so far.

I thought we were having fun, but maybe not? I have dated anyone in a lot of years, and I was SA back in February so I am admittedly pretty rusty at the game. :/

I'm still very guarded and officially wondering if my alcoholic, neurodivergent ass messed up something that could have been great... or if my alcoholic, neurodivergent ass intuition saved me from another disaster of a man situation?