I think I love her
We (me 29M, her 24F) started hanging out back in April, started having sex in May. I have a fiancé & she knows. She was technically single when we met but she was still in love with her ex, who is not local.
The sex & overall chemistry was unparalleled. I crave her everyday. Last week while I was on vacation she texted me that her ex is back in the picture & that we probably shouldn’t “hang out” anymore. The shit lowkey broke my heart.
Even tho she said this, I know it won’t be the last time. I never actually said “I love you”, but when you know you know. And I have a strong feeling that I might. She’ll be back in town this Friday & im thinking of asking her to come to my cabin this weekend to trip on shrooms, smoke weed, and enjoy nature together in a heightened state of euphoria.
Prior to last week I was thinking HARD on leaving my fiancé for her soon. But now, the situation is murky.
Her touch, her smile, her voice, her charisma, those beautiful fucking hazel eyes, omg… I just can’t get enough of her. I’ve never felt this strongly about my fiancé if I’m being honest. I love my fiancé & we’ve been together going on 10 years (~1 year engaged), but sex with her is like eating hamburger helper every night; it does the job but definitely not something you’d want to be eating every night. Sex with my AP is like eating steak & lobster, fucking amazing & something I could eat everyday multiple times a day.
Just had to get this off my chest.