13+ year friendship is over
I thought this would be a lifelong friend, but something changed that altered my mental health and ruined our relationship.
This was a friend that I have fully supported for years, have gone above and beyond for and given everything I had. I never expected anything in return, but their anger was always misplaced and I got hurt so many times.
They would make rude jokes and comments under my posts, gaslit me, and made me minimize myself for years. I always felt like I was in the wrong, always apologizing because they were so cruel to me. When I needed support they would talk down and make me feel suicidal. If I tried to set a boundary or tell them that I was uncomfortable, they would continue to push until I shut down.
After multiple conversations that I initiated, expressing my hurt and me wanting them to remain n their life, I gave up. I know that life isn't going the way they wanted to, but I can't continue to be emotionally abused and expect to eat shit every.fucking.time.
Instead of giving them an explanation, I blocked. I am free, and I hope that anyone else reading this can free themselves from harmful friendships too.