8weeks and considering MA
I’m 8 weeks and 1 day today and considering MA. I found out I was pregnant at about 5weeks. My fiance and I were shocked and scared but welcoming to the idea. This last week things have gone really downhill. My emotions are out of whack and my fiance had to put his dog down, causing extra stress in the household. He kicked me out of the (his) house late Friday night, leaving me the only option of crossing state lines to go stay with my elderly parents. I spent the next day texting, calling, pleading, begging for him to stay with me and take me back while he gave me the cold shoulder and pretty much talked shit.
On Sunday I woke up from bed, took a nice long walk and came to the realization that maybe I don’t want this baby anymore. I’ll be 39yo in a few months. I never wanted to be in a relationship like this, let alone have a child alone. I uprooted my entire life to be with this guy and moved into his house after our engagement. Everything was relatively great up until recently. He has finally come around and wants me to come back so we can “get back to normal”. I don’t think I’ll be able to get back to a normal state after this. What if I decide to stay and this happens again but it’s too late for an abortion? I can’t bring a child into the world knowing this is possible.
He says he wants to live a happy life with me but on the other hand he understands if I want to have an abortion, and agrees that may be the best decision. Although if I have the abortion, then he wants me to permanently move out and break up the engagement. I’m at a loss and don’t know the right thing to do.