6 months HRT and idk who I am anymore
I feel like my good days are increasingly becoming few and far between. Most days, my dysphoria is through the roof or just manageable. I thought these were supposed to be some of the happiest moments of my life as for I thought I finally had everything figured out. Before HRT I knew without a doubt that this is what I wanted. I don’t know what to feel or who I am anymore. I’m exhausted. I’m so scared and stressed all the time. Scared of change, scared of the world. I knew this wasn’t going to be easy but now I’m questioning everything. However the prospect of going back to being a man brings me a lot of sadness. I’m also grappling with the recent realization that I’m likely AuDHD and have been masking for my entire life on top of repressing my gender and sexuality.
Does anyone have any advice or similar personal experiences?