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It’s been about 3 and a bit weeks since my breakup and wow golly I didn’t realise i’d hit my worst day yet ha. I made the mistake of checking and she’d updated her profile picture and it really sent me into a bad spiral, I saw her in some mutual photos and that made it even worse, I felt sick.

I’m trying to do everything I can but clearly not enough..

I feel I’m struggling more than I let off with this breakup. It’s the 3rd and final time for me. I’ve tried to fight
every time, but feel there’s something wrong with me for the 3 times to be left, it has taken a big knock at my confidence, I can fake it but deep down I feel false and just bleh.

Does anyone have any motivation or post breakup stories than can help I just feel a bit hopeless..

God it really does seem to be going backwards, some hours I feel okay and come to terms with things then I just get this horrible twisting feeling in my stomach for hours on end. Hoping some reel or TikTok will save me from my peril with something relatable but it only lasts for a few moments. I find sleep quite difficult it’s the only place where no contact doesn’t exist. I can’t stop seeing her or situations in my dreams I know it sounds silly but it’s really real. I find myself waking up to check just incase but nothing.

We’re now on the 3rd breakup all on her decision but I just need to have more self respect for myself, but some part of me just wants her even though friends and family have said she wasn’t great to me.

I don’t know if that was just verbal diarrhoea so apologies but I’m just finding it hard.