u/IllNeedleworker1602

Hi! Hope the title isn't too much of a spoiler. Came over here to ask for opinions on a thing that's been on my mind lately. I'm not much of a theory crafter, nor a really good literary analysist, but this one seemed kind of interesting. I searched around the sub and didn't find anything similar so I'm sorry if this is a really widely agreed upon conclusion or, on the opposite, I'm wrong about everything.

I was wondering for some time why exactly the silverwood tree curse concept hit so close to home and made me so emotional. It's understandable a mentally ill person always loves a brooding, cursed by the circumstances and destined to die kind of little guy and often relates to them, and it's also understandable most of this feeling is probably due to the fact Shirahama-sensei is a genuinely amazing storyteller and artist. But I recently had a connection create itself, when I was trying to fall asleep thinking about meeting up with a friend and their dog and playing with that sweet dog but then being jolted completely awake by the thought of doing something horrible to it by accident, in vivid details too.

I don't know if this was planned by Shirahama or not, but it really feels like some kind of a metaphor or a symbolic depiction for anxiety disorders of different genres. There's something hailing from childhood that's keeping you from happiness and feeling safe at all points of your life, something that's always there -- in the back of your mind if not fully active. You can never be fully content with anything, something always gnaws at you. Overtime, you just grow to live like that, and some people start perceiving comfort and safety as uncomfortable and unsafe, which only leads to sabotage, both purposeful and accidental, because they can't bear it. Wiping Olruggio's memories causes deep pain for Qifrey which is what he's after in these moments, but it probably also harms Olruggio in some ways, exactly like an anxiety disorder brings you to do terrible things to your loved ones. They might accept it and forgive you, sometimes they won't even know, but you know you've done a terrible thing and added another thing to be anxious about. Obviously you won't keel over and grow branches when you have anxiety and get too comfy. But it feels like you're in danger and waiting on anything to crumble and destroy anything that's dear to you, your own life included. SO! even if this "metaphor" wasn't what Shirahama tried to say, it kind of made me ponder.

What do you think? Do you see it as a simple writing decision or as some kind of a metaphor? Do you interpret it in any other way? Thank you in advance!!

I've always had trouble processing words, but this is a new one. When I'm not fully locked in on listening, like when I'm not expecting to listen to someone, sometimes I just don't even hear them speaking even if they scream to get my attention apparently (it usually happens when I'm watching youtube but I never wear both earpods since I'm so nervous of missing something that's being said, I only put it on half the volume and it has never gotten in the way of registering speech before). Obviously it's causing some not so fun issues and is annoying for everyone now. I thought it only impacted hearing people talk but I've missed a couple of warning sirens outside recently when it was dead quiet at night.

My best friend is now convinced that I must have some other things too, possibly even hearing loss, but I'm very certain I don't since none of my relatives have had hearing loss before their sixties and also nothing else has changed about my hearing, I just miss things way more often to everyone's annoyance. Right now it just feels like my apd is getting worse with age despite what would be logical. Have you experienced this? Is it possible for apd to affect stuff like that or should I possibly really go and get checked out for hearing loss? Is there anything that helped you, or might help me, deal with it? Thank you in advance!!