(TW: Suicidal and Self harm) This is bad very
I started dating a guy in Jan 2026
Had my boards in Feb-March WHICH WENT FAB BTW got 92%
Chose humanities for which parents made my life hell and shamed by choices all the time. They constantly blabber about me taking PCM to all the friends and relatives they have instead. But anyways, that was miserable enough.
My dad and mum read my chats with boyfie in April and he GENUINELY tried to stab me but my mum intervened and he stopped. I've never been the same since then. They don't have any problem with me dating anybody but WHY IS IT A BOY is thier many agenda. They had a talk with me which was just me crying and them saying horrible shit such as how gay is just a translation for the word gaandu and sex is the primary thing gays are all around for. It was horrible. I hate my body and self ever since then. I got a bad habit of cutting myself since that and to be honest I actually kind of like it...? Like idk
I had a few suicide attempts back in April and May though after that it was limited to sh
Things got normal TO AN EXTENT and my liberties were allowed asw UNTIL last week where they read my chats with my boyfriend again. It was the same story with abuse and humiliation.
I lied to them saying I've converted to being straight and being desperate to change my sexuality, they believe it.
Anyways, my boyfriend being an absolute cutie pie and saviour got me connected with some NGOs and human rights orgs for thier advices and counselling. Turns out I can't do anything alone because I'm in my parents' custody and we have no option. If word gets out that my dad tried to kill me then he can be charged eith an attempt to murder and the state will have my custody (this is what they said)
So yeah
I'm alone
Like always
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