Guilt of depression
Has anyone here felt guilty that they are depressed?
Sometimes I do question myself if is it by choice that I am depressed 🤷♀️ or am I just not helping myself enough?
I even feel guilty as it seems that I am advocating for my depression to accompany me like when I go to subreddits because I think that I'm just looking for validation in an echo chamber. Am I just justifying my ways because of depression? So I find comfort in being one?
I have done bloodless self-harm multiple times and would think that erasing myself is the only option to be relieved of this loop. But then I would feel guilty because either alive or dead I will still be a burden. Guilt and shame for everything and myself, then regret for my actions and inaction for feeling these things and then guilt and shame again for being petty.
My apologies for sounding heavy. I hope everyone would get through this safely.