Pregnant after TFMR
I had my TFMR 8 months ago, giving birth to Morpheus, my 18 week old baby.
The back story is in my post history of you want to have a read.
We waited 7 months TTC. It happened on the first cycle which I'm so unbelievably grateful for, however, it is like pent up grief is just exploding out of me. I'm 6+4 weeks.
My heart feels so full but at the same time so broken. It's a really polarising place to be in.
I'm emotional to another degree, I feel depleted of energy (likely that first trimester fatigue) which I do remember but this feels like I'm completely stripped inside out.
I know a lot of this is part of the first trimester throws, as nausea has kicked in, but the intense grief that has accompanied it is relentless.
I live with my sister in law and her partner with my husband. My husband and I decided to keep this pregnancy quiet until we get over those big milestones. Safeguard our emotions, but it also makes me want to not be around them or others. Even the thought of telling people makes me feel weird. And I am hoping this will pass as things progress. Or I can just change my thoughts around it. Very different experience indeed.
I want to say that this wouldn't be the same for everyone. I've hopped on here to read others stories and there are some amazing resilient minds out there just doing it, taking it day by day. I'm in awe. However, one thing I've learnt from our TFMR experience is that everyone is so different, pregnancies are all so different and that's ok.
I just didn't know where else to voice this.
I give all my love and I hope this doesn't make someone feel like they should be scared to conceive after TFMR, it's such a beautiful amazing thing, but I hope this post just makes someone else out there going through the same as me feel a little less alone.
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