u/Illustrious-Low-6682

I am 29M, 6ft0in, 310lbs, and I feel like my health has fallen beyond repair.

Last week my doctor said she heard a heart murmur. This is the second time any doctor mentioned hearing a murmur. The first time was 4-6 years ago.

I haven't always been this bad. I use to be in a lot better shape. But my circumstances have drastically changed since then.

When i was 18 and 250, i could walk for miles. My asthma prevented me from running anything longer than a mile. Call that an excuse if you want, but I genuinely tried. I was part of the 1000lb club. Where my bench, squat, and deadlift weighed more than 1000lbs combined. My one rep max was 425ish on bench, 400 squat, and a 350 deadlift. But that was when I had friends, love, and access.

Now, I am afraid.

I can't change my ways fast enough to make any significant difference in my future. Multiple years on Lithium shot either my liver or kidneys.

I am currently on several medications. 2 for depression and anxiety, 1 for ADD.

Someone please tell me it is not too late. I never been this scared in my life.

I was invited on a backpacking trip in the PNW. I am not in my prime anymore so I am packing lighter than I usually would. That is why I am packing a tarp instead of a tent. However all the enclosed shelters i found were for square tarps. All I can find is rectangular. There is a great deal locally for 10 feet by 16 feet.

Does anyone have any designs/schematics i may have missed or overlooked?