parents lowkey ruining my life
so long story short, my parents job involve us to live abroad and that is what i have been doing for the past 18 years. As a result, i had always been working towards applying to universities abroad, but fast forward 2 months ago my parents completely pull the rug on me and tell me that they are refusing to pay and will only allow me to go to a chosen university in my home country which has barely in opportunities for the degree i want to pursue.
now this has severely pissed me off because to work towards getting scholarships abroad i got valedictorian, multiple awards and extracurriculars and now all of that hard work is going down the toilet. Every time I try to discuss anything with them they say that I'm not ready to study abroad and that they will not pay for it with the compromise that i can do my masters abroad (which im starting to doubt as well).
I feel like all my hard work has been useless, im feeling extremely anxious and on top of that i barely speak the language of my home country and i've been warned by multiple people to not attend the uni because of how shit it is percieved to be. Along with that, i've been trying my hardest to contact people on linkedin and instagram for my uni to try to make friends before i join the programme and i've been unsuccessful or have been ghosted. Idk what to do and all my parents do is yell at me.
All my friends are rubbing it into my face that theyre accepted to universities abroad when im not even able to try because of zero financial support as a in international student. im going to have to just suck it up and get thorugh the 4 years of my degree in my home country and hope to get some opportunities but right now im feeling really demotivated and angry at my parents who are acting like im the most ungrateful child in the world for trying to work towards a dream that they were hanging over my head just to throw it away at the last second.