u/IllustriousEscape736

So I've been seeing this therapist for close to about a year and lately she has been ticking me off lately. For the past couple of months she was very supportive of me being friends with this female friend of mine. I won't disclose my female friend's real name but we will call her by Helen. So Helen and I have been friends for close to about 7 years or so. We are great friends but unfortunately I am friend zoned. Helen recently got engaged recently and it has torn me into pieces. I have been mentally unstable for the past month or so. I'm ticked off and I am desperately wanting to see her and I've thought about flying over to California and just show up at her restaurant to just see her. I'm flipping back and forth between doing that and not doing that. She has a second job as a musician and its hard having to wait until she has another gig that I can go to. I've thought about just flying over to Cali and just go visit her at her day job. I like traveling anyways and so I thought it would be a good idea since my bestfriend and I are thinking about making a trip to go out west again this summer. My friend lives in El Paso and so we're thinking about me flying over there and head out west somewhere. We haven't decided where yet but I've thought convincing him to go to California to see Helen with me. My therapist on the other hand got me so mad earlier today cause she told me something that I didn't like. She told me that me and helen never had a friendship cause helen never came to visit me and it was always me going to visit her instead. She told me " Your not friends with her. You two have never spent time outside of her gigs, she doesn't come and visit you and she never even invited you to her house.". I got angry and told her that there are different types of friends and she doesn't have to invite me to her house to be her friend. I've been friends with my friend Paxton for 10 years and he has never invited me to his house. Paxton and I would meet up and hangout and we would stay at a hotel instead of his house. I told her just cause she hasn't invited me to come and visit her at her house doesn't mean that we aren't friends. I told her that Helen has done things for me before such as booking an hotel room for us in Kansas City a few years ago when we went to see her there. Helen paid for the whole room and never even once asked me to pay her back. My therapist then argued and said " But it wasn't just for you, it was for your family. She never did anything for you.". I argued more and said that one time I spent the whole evening with her at a halloween party cause my bestfriend left early to go back to the hotel to sleep. I told her that Helen sat with me the whole evening and we chatted and had a good time. I told her that I reminisce about that a lot cause it was one of those rare instances where I got to spend a lot of time with her. She then told me that I'm just so delusional beyond repair. I got mad and just picked up and left. I'm considering finding a new therapist after this. AITBF for disagreeing ?