Adhd + possible autism ?
F27, diagnosed with ADHD but suspecting autism. I don't always relate to other ADHD people - I can find them messy, and all over the place.. most of my friends have ADHD and I love them. Sometimes I just feel very different, more sensitive and in need of systems and clarity.
My biggest neurodivergent traits are:
-Extreme sensory issues (light, sound, smell, texture, everything). It's been like this since I was a child.
-I get distracted if I'm not interested in a conversation or a topic. I day dream all the time.
-I "stim" by beatboxing, drumming with my hands, singing, tapping, etc.
-Difficulty with unknown factors. I either need to be in full control of a situation so I can control the environment, or have a really clear system/plan to follow. I'm not good in unclear situations where people just follow along and see what happens. I need to know why we do things and where we're going.
-Repeated behaviour. I create systems and habits to feel safe. Ive always done this. The way I eat, the way I fold my clothes, shows i watch etc.
-Social battery. I need to recharge alone after being social. If I don't, I can't feel anything and I don't know my self. sometimes I need to be alone for days.
Backstory and medicine confusion: The first medicine I tried was methylphenidate, and I think it worked great for my focus, morenenergy throughout the day, and less dopamine seeking. Currently I'm on 36mg slow release methylphenidate. But as of recent, i started feeling pretty anxious and stressed out all the time, and it just feels like it's connected to the meds..
Is it possible my body's reacting/rejecting the meds after 5 months of use? Or could it have to do with possible autism and the meds not being right? How does adhd meds and autism work together?
I hope you can help. I could just Google this, but I need human advice... ❤️