Someone please help…
I genuinely feel doomed. My parents have been pressuring me to enter medicine for a long time right now, but there’s no way I’m getting in. My applications are next month as well. I keep comparing myself to like family members who are doctors, engineers etc. I feel really insecure about it and I keep having panic and anxiety attacks about it too. I’ve been trying to do UCAT prep, but I suck at it miserably. I literally cry myself to sleep whenever I have a UCAT session because there’s just no way I’m going to do well in it. Atp I learned to accept that I’m not going to get a 99+ atar and a good UCAT. It doesn’t even help that my UCAT will take place later this month. While I’m guaranteed that my ATAR will be above 95 (I think idk), it’s not enough to guarantee a place into most med courses. GAMSAT looks like hell too, so I don’t know if I want to do postgraduate medicine. If anyone wants to look at my scores so far here (I’m from Queensland):
IA1
English - 25/25
Chemistry - 9/10
Physics -10/10
Visual Art - 20/20
Economics - 25/25
Methods 19/20
IA2
Physics - 17/20
Maths Methods - 12/15
Economics- 25/25
Chem - 17/20
English - 24/25
Art - 25/25
Some have yet to be confirmed by the QCAA, but yeah. i feel like my grades are not good enough anyway so. I feel like a failure and I feel like I’m good for nothing, like I’m unremarkable.I get that there are other careers and pathways, but I literally have no hope. For engineering, I want to do software engineering but that probably deals with lots of complex code etc. Maths and physics aren’t my strongest suits either. I could do law, but I don’t know how stable it will be financially. I want to get a 98 atar ideally, but idk how possible that would be. I don’t know if someone could help out or give suggestions that would be great. thank you.