I Love Hanuman Ji but I Keep Failing the Promises I Make
I promised Hanuman ji that if one thing in my life worked out, I would stop eating meat. I got what I prayed for, but now I’m struggling to keep that promise and it’s eating me from inside.
I have done Hanuman sadhana before and I chant Hanuman Chalisa three times daily, so it’s not that I don’t have faith or devotion. But I keep feeling guilty because I haven’t been able to keep some promises I made spiritually.
Now I constantly fear things like — what if Hanuman ji is disappointed in me? What if he leaves me because I’m selfish and weak-minded? I genuinely love and believe in him, but I also feel trapped between devotion and my inability to control myself fully.
Has anyone else gone through something similar with vows/promises made to God? How did you deal with the guilt and fear?