Shopping. :/
I started at 350 and I'm at 296 right now, and I'm very proud of myself. I am learning to love myself slowly and I understand there's still a long road ahead.
I had to go shopping today to find clothes for a special event, and I was hopeful because I thought I've lost weight and this might be the first shopping trip in YEARS that I can go in, find something I like, and get out. Well I was wrong lol. I tried on dresses and shirts and everything but I swear I looked like I was 350 Ibs again.
I have such a stubborn stomach that I know will come down as I lose more but there are so many emotions that come up with these kinds of things. I'm so mad I got so high in weight in the first place, I'm so upset and embarrassed that I can't just come in and try on a beautiful dress and it will look amazing, just all of the emotions.
Then I think about when I eventually lose the weight, I will have copious amounts of loose skin to worry about. I want to wear a dress and feel feminine so badly. I'm just feeling very down.
It gets better, right? 🥲 Please tell me it gets better.