u/Illustrious_Guess827

I had been sober for about 4 months, I was the fittest and happiest I had been in a few years. I was extremely proud of myself and felt no temptation when my flatmates would smoke.

However, it is the first anniversary of something very traumatic that nearly ended my life and in my PTSD state reached for my old friendly crutch.

I’m trying to not be angry at myself because it was a coping mechanism for a reason and I didn’t have many other options around. I also tried to leave the house before it got to this point where I was too weak to refuse. Anyways I want to forgive myself but I am so angry at myself for fallen back into this cycle.

Does anyone have any advice for making peace with this?