Im a teen, and so is she. So its natural we feel things more deeply and emotionally. But truly, this hurts me so much, so apologies in advance if it sounds too dramatic.
Context:
I met this girl online(but weve gotten to know eachother and our parents know that we are friends, also have seen eachothers faces. Our friendship was very close and turned into a homoerotic friendship a few months ago. Thinking she loved me because of how she acted, i confessed. Which caused a HUGE misunderstanding between us, but we worked it out and were okay for 2 weeks. Until APRIL. She started becoming distant, and im a clingy girl who needs reassurance and consistency, so it stressed me out and i would text her about it. She would reply shortly and it would hurt me. Final blow was april 8, she stopped talking to me cause she needed a break. I tried texting 3 times only in the span of a week cause i didnt really understand the sincerity and the seriousness of this “break.” Lastweek, i texted a long message apologizing and wishing her the best, she replied that she still just needs a break and more bs that i cant even think of without being sick. I havent texted since then, but i almost did again. Im feeling lost, and jts 5am cause i cant sleep. 1 week of no communication, and 1 month of off and on communication. I love her deeply, but i dont know what to do. She reposts some videos on tiktok about us, but it makes me feel like she just doesn’t care anymore.
I miss her a lot, and ive cried countless tears for her.
So please, if anyone has advice.
(Btw my first REAL crush where i cared this much:( wlw canon event i guess.)