24(F), the first time i was assaulted back when I was on 9th grade, tandang-tanda ko pa kasi nung nangyare yun sunday ng gabi at hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos kahit na may pasok ako kinabukasan. Dala-dala ko pa yung trauma hanggang school. At first, nung bata ako inisip ko since lasing siya baka hindi niya alam ginagawa niya. Sobrang welcoming ng parents ko, pag may bisita sila talaga nagi-insist na sa bahay magstay and this punk, went into my bedroom, i'm sharing room with my sister who is 10 years old that time.
Humiga siya nilabas niya at tinutok niya sa likod ko, hindi ko alam kung paano ako gagalaw pero wala ng ibang nangyare, tinutuok siya at umuungol siya, umiiyak ako pero di ako nagpapahalata na gising kasi natatakot ako baka kung ano pa ang gawin niya lalong-lalo na sa kapatid ko.
I thought yun na ang pinaka last na nangyare yun pero nasundan ulit 'yon, lasing siya at finorce niya ako sa oral sex, gusto niyo i-bj ko siya pero dahil umiiyak ako at lumalakas ang hikbi ko, natatakot siya na may makarinig, he let me go, he get out of the room and it happened inside our home.
Yun ang pinaka last na nangyare, and right now, i had the courage for how many years, nagkaroon ako ng boyfriend and it still traumatized me, i don't want to be in a relationship with that trauma.
I am working now, bumukod ako and i don't go back home even occasionally sa bahay, nilalabas ko lang family ko kapag may pera ako and i made lots of excuses whenever they ask me why i don't want to go back.
I want to end him right after makita ko yung eye contact niya sa legs ng sister ko.
My sister had no idea, i never speak to any soul, until now.
I don't want to suffer this for so long, so i want to end that motherfucker who made me this way.
The predator is not our guests, it's my own father.