I [15M] am so clueless about our relationship
So me [15M] and my SO [15F] have been in a LDR for around 4 months now and I don’t know if I should end it here where we are.
Long story short, she’s very untalkative (in general) and not always on her phone, plus whenever we call each other we have the awkward silences a little too often. These last few weeks I noticed that she might have started to lose feelings. She didn’t send me videos/pictures of her everyday life that often anymore (which we did really often, especially in the first 3 months of us dating) and I still did every day. I was starting to give in a bit more effort than her. I was always the first one to text her. She was busy because of school related things, but I was not sure if that was the actual reason.
I have talked to her about this yesterday and she told me that she naturally is untalkative and she is gonna try and change a few things. She also asked me the question which has been stuck in my head ever since; “Do you want to continue to keep trying?” That question hit me hard and I was clueless as to what I should have responded. I have very strong feelings for this girl and I am emotionally attached to the point where I’m not sure if I could handle a break up with her. She didn’t ask me that question because she wanted to end things, but rather because she “doesn’t want to hurt me by her behavior”.
Her whole family knows me at this point and so does mine, plus she is a really cool person so I am very clueless as to what I should do. I am considering ending things, because in a LDR the communication has to be there with each other + we both have to give in the equal amount of effort (which she told me she’s gonna try in the next few weeks), but on the other hand I am deeply in love with her and it would just break me totally if I broke up with her.
For context, we met through a social media app (her being an old classmate of my sister, but moving back to her home country about roughly 600-700km away from my city 2 years ago) and I am supposed to come visit her at the end of the month. We agreed on trying longer now, me knowing that she isn’t very talkative or on her phone often (I was always overthinking that she wouldn’t respond to me on purpose) and forgetting about this conversation we had. My gut feeling is telling me to break up with her but I don’t know what the right choice would be. (it’s my first ever relationship by the way)