I Feel Hopeless
I’m normally an optimist and I’d like to believe that anything is possible, but recently I’ve been manifesting SP. on this journey of manifesting I’ve opened up a whole new perspective of spirituality and the universe as we know it. I was consistent with my manifestation and I often felt like that was all thought about was this SP. I realized how that wasn’t good for me so I started to decentralize it. I started focusing on other things that I could possibly manifest and but my energy into. But recently I’ve felt hopeless. I’ve manifested small things before and still it was super cool to see those play out but it’s something about this SP one that just not working out. I often feel to just give up on it but every time I try, i feel drawn back to it…like the book isn’t complete. I kinda want it to be over and I wish i could forget about him and what I once wanted, and I know I’m more than capable of doing so but something just won’t let me fully commit to letting go. I don’t know what to do. I know you’re supposed to stay persistent even when in doubt but I’ve been persistent in doubt for months now and I’ve seen nothing. Just the same old cycle between me and him. I was once super close to that but then something happened and now the relationship is strained and I’m scared to be as vulnerable as i once was so it leads to me holding my tongue a lot. And he isn’t the “open up about my feelings type” and before things felt so natural but now it feels kinda forced or like there’s things that need to be said but no one is saying them and we’re just going on like everything is normal. I don’t know what to do and I could really use some help.