u/Illustrious_Win300

Started talking on Snap around July/August last year. Both not looking for anything serious. I found him to be clingy at first, but that’s usually how it goes huh. It was a fwb arrangement, we lived close and it worked well. Off and on for 4 months, he would always break it off when he dated someone else. The first time it happened, I was genuinely unphased about it and wished him the best. Still stayed friends on snap and continued our streak. Had one moment of weakness and we fooled around one time while he had gf. He felt guilty about it and they later broke up. We kinda picked up where we left off. But this time around I was catching feelings, he started opening up to me more, showing more affection when we would hook up. He’s a Cancer ♋️ Moon and I’m a Cancer Sun, could read him like a book. I was there for all the low times, the only one who would answer his calls. He fell asleep one time after asking me to come over, I got mad and left. When he woke up and realized what happened he blew my phone up with calls, voice notes, messages, you name it. I called when I woke up and he just told me to listen to all the msgs and it was him apologizing over and over, saying how he did give a fuck about me and thanking me for being there for him. We had such great sexual chemistry, I felt so comfortable with him to try new things. Then I notice the old familiar pattern. Leaving me on opened for hours, pulling away, occasionally I would view his location and it was staying at a certain address consistently. Then he sends me a snap with his new gf. I did get drunk and confess feelings one time prior, so the blow felt deeper. I hated I had let myself catch feelings for someone I had no I intentions of being in a relationship with. I didn’t make a scene, I just quietly unadded him. The next day he did the same. Been no contact ever since. And they have been together 5 months now. I’m just a memory I suppose, and I hate I still think about him. Wonder if he thinks of me. He looks so happy and in love, and I’m glad he found it. I don’t regret the time we spent together. It’s a strange feeling, missing someone who wasn’t really yours to begin with.