u/Ilovedietcokeandlime

I am a 25-year-old female who has bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder, and I am constantly at war in my head over what type of girl I want to be. Right now I have pink bedding but I want to change it to black and make my room all dark and edgy. I also have a huge fucking urge to get my tongue pierced. I am very easily influenced and I fucking love, bad boys. I fear that I will never not love a bad boy. Lately, I have been watching so many edgy bad-boy content creators. It's just wild because I also go through hardcore cycles where I am the complete opposite: I strive for a perfect clean-girl aesthetic, and I will watch trade wife content and listen to country music all day. I go through these same cycles constantly over and over again switching back and forth highly unsure of what I want. I am so easily influenced that I will watch a movie and see someone's hair then proceed to obsess over how I want that haircut. I also definitely have a fantasy addiction.